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Third Time Down
05:28
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I've written death a thousand times
those tears I've wept, no more.
I play with words, to hide the pain,
I've lied on a distant shore.
I lost myself along the way
the path ahead a bore
The man I was, the life I lived,
seem meaningless and worn.
My heart is strong
but it feels as though
this is my siren song.
It's my third time down.
I'm sinking fast.
I'm feeling that I could drown.
So deep the waters that I swim
every stroke takes me from home.
The life force inside of me
are pockets full of stones.
Heavy are the thoughts I keep,
I'm a stranger in my mind.
I keep afloat by will alone,
it’s the light keeping me alive.
(repeat chorus)
To see inside and touch my heart
is merely just a sip.
I am but an empty glass like
a kiss from a stranger's lips
A December's day, in the rain
with holiday lights galore.
A tidal wave, an overload,
and I'm running from the stores.
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)
It's my third time down.
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2. |
The Storm Inside
04:11
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It’s Friday night and I have no plans.
I’ll be alone and I don’t understand.
What is wrong with me?
Sometimes I wonder why I even try
to fight the storm inside.
to fight the storm inside.
On social media I have a thousand friends.
They read my posts but I don’t talk to them.
I go out to the clubs where I can find my kind
where I can dance and drink
away the storm inside.
I fight the storm inside.
And when I wake to my empty room,
I wonder what more that I could do?
Maybe a friend would care,
give me a purpose to life,
and would help me fight
to lessen the storm inside.
I fight the storm inside.
This is my life.
I'm on my own.
I wonder how I am still alive.
There is a storm.
It fills my head.
It rages, leaving me dead inside.
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3. |
Sanctuary
03:50
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When I'm alone in my room
I turn the lights low
and the music in my ears
beats along to the rhythms I know
Come with me to the place I call
my sanctuary.
Here, I am myself
where I can lose
my insecurities.
I fantasize and dream that
I'm still inside of me.
Come with me to the place I call
my sanctuary.
There is no one here
to see me cry;
to see me break.
And I feel I am free
to spend my time
away from all the hate.
Come with me to the place I call
my sanctuary.
You, I find so dear
So I offer you to come inside
where we can open up
and be ourselves, be alive.
Come with me to the place I call
my sanctuary.
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4. |
I See You
04:07
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Tell me about your dreams.
Tell me what makes you scream.
Tell me, I want to be there
and give you just a little scare.
'Cause I see you.
Tell me all your fantasies.
Tell me about your tragedies.
I'll be part of your reality
and I'll play with your sexuality.
'Cause I see you.
I'll keep all your dirty secrets,
and I'll know your greatest weakness.
I'll tease you with well-timed flattery.
You'll see it's part of my strategy.
'Cause I see you.
I see you. I see you. I see you.
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5. |
Shadow Magick
05:31
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The dark side of the moon
is simply a shadow of the sun.
The brighter side, inside of you
is constantly being overrun.
Your shadow is now all I see.
It's all you ever show to me.
And with the light I shed on you...
a world of dark and make-believe
Casting shadows on the wall
Watching them dance to flickering lights.
Twisting, shifting, changing shapes,
in wrything light they come to life.
Conjuring shadows to set us free.
Our darker sides to emulate.
Light a candle and say the words.
Invoking shadows to come and play.
Living outside, looking within,
shadow magick, phantom play.
Shifting shapes, a new disguise
but in your head you will remain.
Candles lit, and weeping eyes,
a part of you, you'll not deny
Chaos thrown out from the fire
a side of you that can never die.
A memory so long ago
Oh how it has taken hold.
Like Peter Pan, who felt no love,
only numb as it flew away
Create a shadow,
give it your pain,
then watch it dance it all away.
Don’t try to run.
Don't try to hide.
Your shadow will remain untamed.
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6. |
The Drowning Man
04:53
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The time has come again,
I find myself in trouble
every now and then.
It will tear me down.
I'm just another man
who's been left to drown.
I'm the drowning man.
I am the drowning man.
I've done all I can.
On my third time down,
my time has come at last.
It's gone by too fast.
I've kept you at bay.
Sometimes the words I speak
aren't the words I'd say.
And doubt will hold me back,
it's looking at my armor
for the little cracks.
I'm the drowning man.
I am the drowning man.
I've done all I can.
On my third time down.
My time has come at last.
It's gone by too fast.
(repeat first verse)
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)
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7. |
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We've made an idol of fear,
and we dance the dark dance.
And with tears on our face,
we give prayer a chance.
But with no coming reply,
we then look to our lines,
But find emptiness there,
an aging despair
To all those who've past,
and to all those who still dance,
there's no lasting reward
in this natural world.
Whether rich or for poor,
there's no difference in death.
So the fat to the thin
will all draw a last breath.
In a world filled of faith,
disease, war, and hate,
the dying are begging
to know their true state.
With a look in their eyes,
when there are no more lies,
the truth is then told
for us to behold
Etta memento vita (And life's moments)
are buried with all the rest.
And we cling to this hope
that's undiscerning at best.
We'll live life how we can
with this burden in hand,
and carry the dream
of eating strawberries and cream.
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8. |
My Friends, the Crows
05:01
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Outside my home, they wait for me.
Outside my home, they call to me.
I know them all by name.
They bring me little gifts.
I talk to them.
They hang around, listening.
We are the tricksters
We'll steal the moon from the night,
only to dance underneath with such delight.
We bare the scars
of all that's grim & dark.
We'll gladly feast upon
all those who'd do us harm.
On the wire above, my friends, the crows.
They fill the sky.
I am one, one with them
With eyes as dark as night,
they're watching me.
Together, a murder,
done beautifully.
(repeat chorus)
We are the creatures of our own desires.
We'll dance and sing
dressed in our black attire.
They'll try to scare us off
with their effigies.
We'll come right back at them aggressively.
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)
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9. |
Putting on Chains
05:16
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I'm putting on the chains today.
I'm putting on my chains today.
I'm living with the pain today.
I'm living with my pain today.
I'm giving the best face today.
I'm giving my best face today.
I'm slipping out of phase today.
I'm slipping out of phase today.
I'm putting on my chains today.
I'm living with my pain today.
I'm giving my best face today.
I'm slipping out of phase today.
I'm putting on my chains today.
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10. |
Voices at Night
03:42
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There are voices all around me.
They criticize my entire life.
Some will whisper, some are shouting,
all will keep me awake at night.
They will haunt me.
The voices haunt me.
They keep me awake,
awake at night, late at night
All the tears and all the joy
and every emotion lying in between.
All I've witnessed, the observations,
and everything returns
that I've ever seen.
(repeat chorus)
All the words and all the truth
and all the lies that I've ever said,
all the lyrics and all the music,
they roll around in my head.
(repeat chorus)
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11. |
Sinking
04:33
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The pool is dark.
The new moon is high.
All is deep,
I am floating inside.
Detaching from all those
people around me,
detaching from all that
surrounds me.
Losing my breath,
please be my savior.
I'm afraid of this,
afraid of failure.
I am sinking.
I am sinking.
The water is cold.
My body is numb.
I long for release
when does the silence come?
The pain in my heart,
I no longer care.
Living in this gray world
that shows me despair.
Here is my hand...
Once, twice, and a third.
I am going under.
In absence I'm heard.
I am sinking.
I am sinking.
I'm on my third time down.
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Johnny Forlorn Seattle, Washington
Synthpop, Darkwave, & Goth artist from Seattle, WA, USA.
Formerly of Shadow Light, Faith & Disease, and Prayers for the Raven.
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